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The Real Me – Things I’m Afraid To Tell You

By Brandy

Jul 06, 2012, Updated Aug 31, 2018

I’m not perfect.

There are lots of things about myself that I try to hide because I’m afraid people would think I’m nuts. That’s when I saw this article on Oprah and it inspired a change. I want my readers to know the real me. I want them to know my craziness. It’s what makes me…me….you know?

So here it goes. This is me. This is the raw, crazy me.

1. I’m an extremely jealous person. Anytime I’m happy for someone I also have a big feeling of jealousy rise up in my gut. I hate this about myself but at the same time cannot seem to beat it.

2. When I get angry I often say out loud “I hope they break a toe!” It’s just about the least horrible physical thing I can wish upon a person.

3. I’m horribly overweight. The frustrating thing is that I know a lot about food. I know how the body works, how it’s processed and what’s healthy and what’s not. I just have a really good (bad?) habit of ignoring my knowledge and eating crap anyway. Plus it doesn’t help that I’m an emotional eater. I’m sad. I eat. I’m happy. I eat…sigh.  Also, being overweight makes me nervous when I met new people. I’m afraid they won’t like me.

4. I love the idea of eating organic more than the actual process. Sometimes I’m lazy and I want to just buy a bag of already cut up lettuce.

5. I DVR WAY too much tv. The shows I watch are horrible and some of them are geared towards high school age kids. Now I’m going to share those shows with you. No judging!

• Americas Next Top Model
• Hell’s Kitchen
• Sister Wives
• Toddlers & Tiaras
• Dance Mom’s
• The Bachelor/ette
• Bridezillas
• Food Network Star/Next Iron Chef
• Top Chef
• The People’s Court
• Judge Judy
• Craft Wars
• The Soup
• Tosh.O
• Vampire Diaries
• The Client List
• Switched at Birth
• Jane by Design
• The Lying Game
• Pretty Little Liars
• Louie
• Melissa & Joey
• Psych
• Any movie thats on ABC Family, Lifetime or Hallmark.

6. I was previously engaged to a not so nice guy. I was going to get married because I just figured that was going to be my life. Then I finally got the guts to leave. I’m now engaged and getting married in October (squeal!) and couldn’t be happier. Art (my fiancee) is caring, sweet and funny. In other words, he’s the best 🙂

7. I’m scared to death of flying. I hate hate hate it. We are going to Aruba in August and anytime I think about it I start to have a panic attack. I don’t understand how people can like flying.

8.  I have a massive fear of dying and am always worried about it. I won’t even wear a scarf while driving because I’m scared that if I got into a crash it would somehow strangle me. Also, anytime I have a pain in my leg I start freaking out because I thinks it’s a blood clot.

9. When I was 7 years old I stole a rabbit. I took it home and told my mom I found it in the yard. She wouldn’t let me keep the rabbit and made me put it back in the yard. I’m not sure what happened to the rabbit. I still feel horrible about the whole thing.

10. Sometimes I want to make a fake Twitter account just so I can talk about all the food bloggers I can’t stand. I know it’s really immature but sometimes I really can’t stand certain people. Don’t worry. If you are reading this it’s not you 🙂

11. When I was 14 I was diagnosed with PCOS and it screws up my entire body. Apparently this also means I’m not supposed to be able to conceive children. I always have mixed feelings about this. I have never felt like I was the “motherly” type (I know that’s weird since I’m a nanny but it really is two different things) so I like being childless. However, I don’t really like having that option taken away from me either. I feel as thought I would rather be childless by choice rather than childless by medical issue.  PCOS took the option away from me and that really bugs me.

12. I’m snarky.

13. I hate doing laundry. I would rather buy new socks than do the laundry.

14. I’m a very outgoing person but get extremely nervous in social situations. I’m always afraid people are judging me.

15. I graduated from college over 3 years ago (I went to college late) and have still not found a “real” job. This really bugs me and makes me regret going to college. That debt is a killer.

16. I haven’t had health insurance in over 8 years. Anytime I get a cold I get worried it’s going to be pneumonia and I’m going to die because I can’t afford health care.

17. I always feel bad when I see food bloggers work has been stolen. Then I insanely think to myself “Well wait…why wasn’t my work stolen? Is it not good enough to be stolen?”

18. When I’m trying to fall asleep I often think about what it would be like to win the lottery.  I usually drift off when I start designing my dream kitchen…

19. I have a fear of swimming in “dark water” and hate anything that’s not a pool. The thought of living things inside the water (touching me….gross!) just really freaks me out.

20. I’m scared that on my wedding day people will be thinking “she has a really fat back….”

Ok. There are 20 things about me. Did I scare you off? Will you read my blog again?

While writing my 20 things I learned I’m scared of a lot of things. I need to read a self-help book I think. Either that or drink a few more beers….

Now it’s your turn – share. What are you afraid to say out loud?

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I got the idea for this post from an article I read on Oprah.  After reading the article I learned that is stemmed from an original posting by the blogger Jess Constable who runs Makeunder My Life. From there it turned into something larger thanks to Ez who invited others to join in on the journey to share the truth 🙂 *Main image courtesy of Ez.